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so i guess life is want to fuck me up/ i have a godson in the hospital and i got friend who are people that make dumb choice in life. i seat here a lone but yet i feel as if i dont need anyone in my life. i just stay true to myself cuz thats whos #1 for me. i thought i had found someone for me but at the moment im just step back and watching from a distance till she grows to be that beautiful woman i see in her. i hope i find my other job soon.
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[18 Nov 2005|01:29am] |
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so i have been let down by some friend and now to make everything worst. my moms has let me down. she let my fucked up cousin. that talk shit about me and my sister. so now i have soon shit living in my house. have 2 jobs sucks but i love the money and spend it. i only get a bout 5 hours of sleep a day. if i'm lucky. and its starting to wear me out. i just hope everyone will be ok and good lucky with everything.
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[14 Oct 2005|01:42am] |
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i had a dream the other night. its was me walking around. when i found a house. i when in the house. in one of the rooms i found one of the person i love the most, but only to find them with another person so. i ran away and the person i love stop me. she said 'kenny its not what its look like' and try around and look at her and said ' is he the one you love' and she said 'yes'. ' if he is the one who make you happy ,then be with , and be happy.' and then i walk away. but i walked by myself and its was on a street i have never seen and there was no one around. as if i was mean to be by myself and is a scary thought. i'm sorry if i have been so what hard on some of my friends. but i don't know wat is wrong. i really want another job and i want to get a car with my own money and i want to have someone beside my friend to care about me more then a friend. but anyways i hope sunday at the cobalt for the warriors show will be one of the great shows ever. i hope to see all the homes and no fights. we don,t need any of that shit
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[12 Sep 2005|03:13am] |
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here i'm again seat down and think about life and wat 2 do about my life. you see sometime i find myself in some hard time and i don't find an answer in life or i get an answer but its not what i was looking for. isn't weird how sometime you think your in love but it ends being that your not and you just love a person company. it happen 2 me and it sucked but hey its the truth. i have always have been living for the fact that one day i will find true love and one day i will and i think i should stop think about if that day will come and focus on have fun with friends and family. the only thing is that my whole life i have grown up being a loner in life because a lot of the ways i think are some what selfish. and i should stop because i have meet many great people but i'm losing a lot of my old friends.but o well i will get them back. time is some we all need but at times hate. like me but we have 2 look through that and just hope for the best for myself but not as much as i hope 4 other friends and enemies alike. to all the couples i know i wish u all the best of lucky and my best wish and 2 all the homies take care don't let anyone down in life because no one has the right 2 take your happiness away
i will u guys late have a good one
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[10 Jul 2005|03:06am] |
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my brithday is 2day and i feel ike shit cux im one of the most happies guys around and some how i have let thing and my family get the best of me and i have let down a lot of my friends and i feel that be the guys everone call 4 help is getting in the way of other friendship and that is not good. i just wish poeple could understand that i wish could help all of my friends but that can not happen. im 19 and no i have no really job and i dont even have my own car and i find myself be more and more lonely but i have be single for about 3 year and i should be able 2 go on like that but im think about getting inked soon any good ideas let me know
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[23 May 2005|02:17am] |
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life is a game and at the end u either win or u lose. so far the game of life betting me and love is the thing that makes me weak. i thougt last week i found some one for me. like everyone finds that that one person they love, but i didnt. sometime when u true love someone or something u have 2 let it go. and sometimes do the right thing is not doing the right thing. i thought i could help my friends but there r some people who cant see me help but insead im getting in the way. i sometimes wish i wasnt bron and i was never in this world cux this world can be fucked up. i dont know if im still doing the right thing and more but i was rise on the respect of women 2 me. women r the most important thing in this life cux without women we would be nothing. right now im seatting here im my room alone for the last 4 years of my life with no one 2 love and i can turn 2 in my up and my down sure there are friends i love and i trues but there r some people can help me with. and im thankful for wat they have done for me. life 2 me is like the ocean wave they come and go but u cant hold on 2. so when u can hold it love 2 he fullest and dont let anyone tell u how 2 love it. hey u live, u learn, and u died thats life
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[06 May 2005|03:02am] |
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i find myself worrier about people i think dont even worrier about me and 2 be honesty its hurt 2 not have someone who care about me as much as i do about my friends. i cant change people only people could change themself. there is only no person who i feel need my help and my love. she know who she is. i would give my life so that this girl well naver fell pain. im seat where at home want 2 have that one people that will stand next 2 me and sleep with me and share there life and let me be loved once again. it sad that it well never happen. i spend time with my friend could one of my biggest fears in life is 2 be alone. and at this monemt in ready 2 die but that would be very selfish. take my life 4 the people who love and soon it will be only 3 poeple who would care about my death. LOVE IS PIAN and PIAN IS LOVE dont forget that U LIVE, U LEARN, AND U DEAD that is the way of life. if i dont have mother i dont know if i could life and 2 one of my friends this will be the biggest live and life i will be there 4 her till the day i die
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[03 Apr 2005|03:03am] |
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i find myself being in a spot where. i feel ass if life itself is agaisnt me. after monday i found out that my car is fucked up. my homie ryan help and then 2 make matter wrost i get pulled over by the CHP
and i had chental and michelle in the car. thank god i didnt get a ticket or anything. then my so called family is plains shit without tell me and they want 2 help them last timed. fuck that shit. then im in a big need of money and all i can do is wast wat money i do have like a fool. i got 2 work on monday and i get 2 go home earliy so i call chantel up cux she was at the movie in northdrige and i miss cux i hadnt seen her in like 3 days right when i going in to the parking lot my cars starts 2 act up again. so i just turn its off and hang out with chantel. hopeing that the car will get better. but like the bad lucky i have when i drove home its broke down right in my drive way. so now i really dont have a car till monday i think. im very upset cux i was supposes 2 hang out with my BF bri but i have no car and it sux. now i find myself feel bummed i dont wat 2 do anymore in life i dont want 2 change but i think i might have 2 change something in life. but i really dont im a little lost.
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[01 Apr 2005|12:46am] |
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so 2day i took a poop and it smell weird and then i went 2 work
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